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Henry Miller's best-known and most famous work (on anybody's top 100 list, and among this year's top 50 sellers), was first published by Girodias's father in 1934. The book itself was accepted by Jack Kahane in '31, but the economy and Kahane's legal struggles led him to continually delay launching the title into print, a situation that was remedied only by Anais Nin's agreeing to pay printer's costs several years later. (A few accounts have Nin receiving the money from her rich broker husband, others state she got the money from her lover and former therapist.) However it happened, Tropic of Cancer was an immediate underground sensation.
The book is an avant-garde account of Henry's poverty-stricken days in Paris, after he'd fled New York, America, and the aftermath of a disastrous marriage, offering life in its minutest detail.
Excerpt:
As I say, she was different, Germaine. Later, when she discovered my
true circumstances, she treated me nobly—blew me to drinks, gave me
credit, pawned my things, introduced me to her friends, and so on. She
even apologized for not lending me money, which I understood quite well
after her maquereau had been pointed out to me. Night after
night I walked down the Boulevard Beaumarchais to the little tabac
where they all congregated and I waited for her to stroll in and give
me a few minutes of her precious time.
When, some time later, I came to write about Claude it was not
Claude that I was thinking of, but Germaine.... “All the men she's been
with and now you, just you, and barges going by, masts and hulls, the
whole damned current of life flowing through you, through her, through
all the guys behind you and after you, the flowers and the birds and
the sun streaming in and the fragrance of it choking you, annihilating
you.” That was for Germaine! Claude was not the same, though I admired
her tremendously—I even thought for a while that I loved her. Claude
had a soul and a conscience; she had refinement, too, which is bad—in
a whore. Claude always imparted a feeling of sadness; she left the
impression, unwittingly, of course, that you were just one more added
to the stream which fate had ordained to destroy her. Unwittingly,
I say, because Claude was the last person in the world who would
consciously create such an image in one's mind. She was too delicate,
too sensitive for that. At bottom, Claude was just a good French girl
of average breed and intelligence whom life had tricked somehow;
something in her there was which was not tough enough to withstand the
shock of daily experience. For her were meant those terrible words of
Louis-Philippe: “and a night comes when all is over, when so many jaws
have closed upon us that we no longer have the strength to stand, and
our meat hangs upon our bodies, as though it had been masticated by
every mouth.” Germaine, on the other hand, was a whore from the cradle;
she was thoroughly satisfied with her role, enjoyed it in fact, except
when her stomach pinched or her shoes gave out, little surface things
of no account, nothing that ate into her soul, nothing that created
torment. Ennui! That was the worst she ever felt. Days there
were, no doubt, when she had a bellyful, as we say—but no more than
that! Most of the time she enjoyed it—or gave the illusion of enjoying
it. It made a difference of course, whom she went with—or came
with. But the principal thing was a man. A man! That was what
she craved. A man with something between his legs that could tickle
her, that could make her writhe in ecstasy, make her grab that bushy
twat of hers with both hands and rub it joyfully, boastfully, proudly,
with a sense of connection, a sense of life. That was the only place
where she experienced any life—down there where she clutched herself
with both hands.
Germaine was a whore all the way through, even down to her good
heart, her whore's heart which is not really a good heart but a lazy
one, an indifferent, flaccid heart that can be touched for a moment, a
heart without reference to any fixed point within, a big, flaccid
whore's heart that can detach itself for a moment from its true center.
However vile and circumscribed was that world which she had created
for herself, nevertheless she functioned in it su-perbly. And that in
itself is a tonic thing. When, after we had become well acquainted, her
companions would twit me, saying that I was in love with Germaine (a
situation almost inconceivable to them), I would say: “Sure! Sure, I'm
in love with her! And what's more, I'm going to be faithful to her!” A
lie, of course, because I could no more think of loving Germaine than I
could think of loving a spider; and if I was faithful, it was
not to Germaine but to that bushy thing she carried between her legs.
Whenever I looked at another woman I thought immediately of Germaine,
of that flaming bush which she had left in my mind and which seemed
imperishable. It gave me pleasure to sit on the terrasse of the
little tabac and observe her as she plied her trade, observe her
as she resorted to the same grimaces, the same tricks, with others as
she had with me. “She's doing her job!”—that's how I felt about it,
and it was with approbation that I regarded her transactions. Later,
when I had taken up with Claude, and I saw her night after night
sitting in her accustomed place, her round little buttocks chubbily
ensconced in the plush settee, I felt a sort of inexpressible rebellion
towards her; a whore, it seemed to me, had no right to be sitting there
like a lady, waiting timidly for some one to approach and all the while
abstemiously sipping her chocolat. Germaine was a hustler. She
didn't wait for you to come to her—she went out and grabbed you. I
remember so well the holes in her stockings, and the torn ragged shoes;
I remember too how she stood at the bar and with blind, courageous
defiance threw a strong drink down her stomach and marched out again.
A hustler! Perhaps it wasn't so pleasant to smell that boozy breath of
hers, that breath compounded of weak coffee, cognac, aperitifs,
pemods and all the other stuff she guzzled between times, what to warm
herself and what to summon up strength and courage, but the fire of it
penetrated her, it glowed down there between her legs where women ought
to glow, and there was established that circuit which makes one feel
the earth under his legs again. When she lay there with her legs apart
and moaning, even if she did moan that way for any and everybody, it
was good, it was a proper show of feeling. She didn't stare up at the
ceiling with a vacant look or count the bedbugs on the wall-paper; she
kept her mind on her business, she talked about the things a man wants
to hear when he's climbing over a woman. Whereas Claude—well, with
Claude there was always a certain delicacy, even when she got under the
sheets with you. And her delicacy offended me. Who wants a delicate
whore! Claude would even ask you to turn your face away when she
squatted over the bidet. All wrong! A man, when he's burning up
with passion, wants to see things; he wants to see everything,
even how they make water. And while it's all very nice to know that a
woman has a mind, literature coming from the cold corpse of a whore is
the last thing to be served in bed. Germaine had the right idea: she
was ignorant and lusty, she put her heart and soul into her work. She
was a whore all the way through—and that was her virtue!
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